Homeschooling 4 Kids While Pregnant | 30 Weeks Pregnant

At this point, I almost want to title this post "Parenting While Pregnant" and just vent away.

I have my 30 week pregnant update post coming up for you later this week (I'm waiting until after my midwife's appt to post it, so that I can include any information she gives me in the post) and in it I talk about how bitchy I am getting.

Today is no exception.

Long time readers of my blog know that I am currently a mama of 4 who is pregnant with #5. I also happen to homeschool everyone, too.

Lately it has been wearing my patience thin.

I love my kids.

I love homeschooling.

I love being pregnant.

But combine them all together and it just creates some sort of chaotic snowglobe of frustrations some days. Today is one of those days.

And I am particularly peeved with the older grade subjects...math, to be even more specific.

Let's get this out there right away: I sucked at math in school.

Not even one-on-one tutoring helped me in the least.

I cannot express to you the joy in my heart when I graduated and knew that I would never need to worry about figuring out those damned math problems every again.

Oh, but I have discovered that God has a sick and twisted sense of humor.

Yes, I love homeschooling. Never ever considered sending my kids to a a "real" school.

I also never took into account that one day I would be once again confronting those blasted math problems that I failed at so miserably when I was younger.

Mix that in with the fact that I am pregnant and my brain is in an almost constant fog...and that just leaves me seething.

I am angry that I cannot figure out these problems.

I am angry that this one child in particular really doesn't seem to give a sh*t about learning how to do it. They just want to be doing something more fun. Not doing school work. I am angry that while I am trying figure out a stupid math formula that I should already know, I have another child (or 2 or 3) simultaneously calling me from another room, needing help with something else.

I am contemplating (actually as of now it's a definite...but we'll see how I feel once my hormones calm down) just enrolling them in online public school next year. I want this pressure taken off of my shoulder because I am so completely overwhelmed and there is no help in sight.

Anyone else out there having a frustrating day today?