Let Me Reintroduce Myself

Hello world!

My name is Monica.

I am a mama of 6 beautiful children....my oldest is 21 and my youngest is 3.

I left an abusive marriage in 2019....my children and I literally ran in the middle of the night...driving from Atlanta, Georgia to Northeast Ohio. We were only able to bring a few bags of clothing. Otherwise, we literally left our entire lives behind: no toys, special lovies/stuffed animals, security blankets...it was all left behind.

I was a housewife and homeschooling mama for almost 20 years up until that moment. It was all I knew. It was all my kids knew. We left our entire world behind in Georgia.

I am now working a full time office job in a corporate environment....it's been quite the transition. I miss my babies so much but I'm doing this for us and for a better life for all of us.

When we moved to Ohio, the Universe sent me someone pretty much immediately. Seriously, when does that ever happen?! I was prepared to be alone for awhile. So when this man began pursuing me, I kept putting him off and trying to scare him off....but he was persistent. This year we will celebrate our 3rd year together. It hasn't always been easy....we are very much the classic example of "opposites attract"....(conservative Marine meets witchy wild woman) but that is a story for its own post on another day.

A few years ago, I came out of the broom closet, so to speak. I am a witch. I truly believe that I was born a witch....friends from even as far back as my kindergarten days remember me being witchy and making potions way back then. I cast my first "official" spell when I was a young teenager...it was a love spell and super successful...but I also learned to be careful what you wish for. It was a doomed "relationship" from the start....and taught me an important lesson: just because you can cast a spell for it doesn't mean that you should.

I began practicing green witchery and kitchen witchery around 18 years ago....but I didn't really label myself as a witch yet. I was afraid. My family is very conservative and very much Christian. I tried to fit in that mold but it never felt right to me. I identify more as pagan and definitely more of a feminist.

I began reading tarot and doing pendulum divination several years ago back in 2018.

I am what is considered a "grey witch"....I am not a fluffy white magick witch, who only does happy positive spellwork...nor am I a dark magick witch who only casts hexes and whatnot. I am a little bit of a mix of both. I am a solitary witch which means that I do not practice as part of a coven, although I do teach other witches about the Craft and show them how to understand their magick a bit more. I have been considering starting something akin to a coven in order to bring my sister witches together in unity and to bring power to some of our larger spells. I have been told by some elder witches that I am a very powerful witch with a lot of help coming through from the spirit side. I look at my life and all I have been through and all I have overcome and I have to admit that I am definitely being looked after and protected by Father God, Mother Goddess and my guides.

Some of you may be reading this and thinking...."why is she explaining all of this??" Here's the thing, I have been a "mommy blogger" for many years. I have touted the attachment parenting and natural remedies world so much....for years, I was "just a mom" and "just a wife".... But I have evolved and grown...as we all SHOULD be doing!! I am more than just someone's mom. I am more than just someone's partner. I am wild, witchy, sexual, spiritual and super spicy. And I want my writing to reflect who I am and not try to keep myself held down to just what you guys are used to me writing about.

Oh! And that abusive ex husband? He was close to $10,000 behind in child support when he got arrested for that....and almost as soon as he was released for that, he was arrested again for fraud--stealing from some of his customers (he had a pool and construction business)--then he got caught for forging my signature and cashing my stimulus check, then forging my signature on a few years' of prior tax returns (he added me on as a joint return, even though I should not have been on them) and now I'm trying to work out all of the problems he caused for me with that.... And it all boiled down to his getting deported several months ago and I believe he is now permanently barred from the reentry into America, as he was convicted of "aggravated felonies" in court.

So to say this has all been an adventure seems a bit of an understatement....lol

Thank you for being with me on this journey and I welcome any and all new readers!